A Book?

I’ve hinted on Twitter about some of the things I’ve done and been through. Some nice folks have been actually reading the stuff and even commented that I should write a book. And several even said they would BUY the book.

I’ve been thinking for more than a year that I want to tell my stories, but I want to be sure I’m doing it as much for the reader’s benefit as mine.

What should the reader get out of it?

The reader should at least be entertained enough to get value for their purchase. But I also want them to get value beyond entertainment. I believe I have things I can teach people.

But when I think that I have some things to teach, I feel shame. Whenever I achieve anything, I feel shame. So, I generally try not to achieve anything. I know exactly why this happens in my brain. I want to tell, but in telling I would feel shame because I loved my mother and don’t want to talk about how I hated my mother. 🙂

What would I get out of it?

I could make money. But, I know dozens of easier ways to make more money (I can write any piece of computer software I dream up — computer programming is way easier to do than writing a book and way easier to get people to pay.)

I could get things off my chest, sure. It would be like therapy.

But I fear that I would be doing it for attention. Again, the shame. I’m not supposed to be proud of myself or accept attention.

I feel some shame right now for even considering posting this blog and tweeting about it.

Oh well! If I could be as cute as a seal with a ball on his nose, I would hop up on that pedestal and start clapping my flippers. Tweet away!

Some of the things Joe has done:

Joe created what was a successful business of his dreams but screwed it up. Then he failed to complete a transaction to sell the company for a profit for personal reasons which this book would disclose. His investors were not happy. They put him on an ice flow.

Joe has been in jail overnight twice for a total of 36 hours! One time it was for walking through a yard!!

Joe has been locked into mental hospitals 7 times in 5 years.

Joe uttered a single sentence in 2005 and has not been allowed to see or contact his children since! That’s an accomplishment. (Maybe I shouldn’t write a book. My words are too powerful and dangerous!)

Joe attempted suicide 4 times and lived to tell about it. Joe frequently considers failing to kill himself as his greatest failure.

And, Joe lost an entire family at sea. It was an accident. Honest.

This list could go on and on and I would only have to make up some of it.

Thank you for your attention.