Even if the adoption was best for Jordyn and Joshua, I deeply regret my decision to allow it.
I never imagined that I would be forever blocked by Kristi to have any contact with my children. I sincerely thought everything would be alright once my life stabilized.
I don’t know why me sending a letter to Jordyn is a problem. It was addressed in care of her mother.
How does a letter cause a problem?
I was so naive. I’m such a trusting person, I guess.
Even now, hurt, my instinct is to think Kristi has done this all for the kids… That she really believes it’s best not to find out if I’m alright and can play nicely with others…
Uhhh. I hate the very idea that my kids might think everything is the way I wanted it — as though I just didn’t have time for them or didn’t love them.
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